Finally making a blog post after a little vacation from it. I do not know if this is sufficient time to write on this as there still seems to be a state of equanimity going on lately. (this doesn’t mean mental fantasy ups and downs don’t still happen) but full acceptance of these things being just as much a part of me as anything else is important as this specific blog talks about surrender and how it cannot be willed.
I talking to my philosophy partner in crime Hrant the other day and we affirmed that words cannot touch this no-self experiencing. The best and only way to SEE is surrender (the best word that describes it).
Not surrendering to someone or something, but just to surrender.
What does this mean for you or I? Surrender is not one of those things that is willfully produced, as it cannot be put into a spiritual practice but to just allow things to dissolve on their own. Not to impose. Things arise. Things drop. Even to trying to not-control is a form of control.
Just looking into daily life and seeing which things arise for you is enough to start the surrender process, to see that those things you think that you are not, that you are those things as much as you are “not” those things. Ultimately it comes down to that you are neither of those words to begin with but the mind places the label on it so as to try and control and file it away in some kind of organizational fashion.
It does a wonderful job of this don’t you think?
How does surrender fit in with the mind?
The mind performs a certain task, and more times than not if one is mindful of what it is, it is getting at (as in what its showing you throughout the day whether its projecting something from someone else or sending specific memories back “out there”).
It is trying to resolve itself. So let it, there is no need to control the work its doing or to push it away saying, “that’s not how I feel, or that isn’t right.” That is not surrender and the more that’s done the more you hinder your own acceptance process.
Don’t get me wrong though, sometimes the hindering has to come to open up that moment when surrender can flood in
Some final words about surrender
I will say this though. As you can see above, there is a lot of back and forth, back and forth. Mainly because the pointing is not easy to do without this. What may work for others may not necessarily work for you but surrender will have you, it is only a matter of when you will just let go.
The good news and the bad news is that there is nothing that can be done to initiate the surrender, it will just happen. Just be receptive enough to receive it.
This is how it’s affirmed that surrender is it, and also to show how words do not encapsulate whats actually being pointed to. I wish there was a better way, but the best way involves no words.