So the reading of Jed Mckenna continues, I’m currently reading the first book of his collection Spiritual Enlightenment: The Damnedest Thing and this story that he puts on in his books are nothing like i’ve ever read before. It talks about the difference between what people think to be enlightenment and what it actually is. He refers to it as truth-realization, as opposed to being an elevated being. The only way that i can describe truth-realization is that it’s whats considered to be the supreme state but this doesn’t mean that everything becomes flowery, but rather the body that is operated by this truth that you are becomes a vehicle of rightness. This is not the rightness that we have come to know either, what we have come to know as rightness is morality and kindness, but true rightness I do not know outside of what Jed Mckenna describes as being the flow of a river, the action that coincides with the universe, which isn’t necessarily non-war esque. If things call for it, it might happen or might be averted depending on which way the flow of the pattern goes.
The First Step as Jed puts it, is the first and the last step to opening yourself up to truth-realization, which then becomes a war against the false, and could quiet possibly be a very painful process. All these ideas, concepts, and beliefs must be annihilated, it is like these things are in an attic and you’re trying to clean the attack but you can’t just move these attachments around to let in light, because no matter what you do, the light will never get in, so the quickest way to light is to burn everything in the attic down. This process is described by Jed as Spiritual Autolysis; taking everything you’ve come to know as truth and looking deep into it, seeing whether it’s true. The easiest way to take the first step is:
Sit Down, Shut up, Find out what is true – Jed Mckenna
It’s about absolutely breaking down even the smallest assumptions that hold up the bigger beliefs to break them down, until you know the truth, and chances are you will come to find that you know nothing of which you thought you knew… This is what they say when they say, “cost of truth is everything.”
Through this I’ve come to see that how can this reality possibly be real, not even the sun has a realness to me, as much as I would want to argue for it for i can see it, what about to a blind man? He sees not the sun but feels it’s rays, he feels the presence, but that is all that there is so to argue that because i can see the sun that it exists can’t be true because for the blind man, he does not see but feels it, but how can we even say that we feel this, who is feeling it, and where is the presence coming from? We can say that the feeling hits the skin, but then locating the feeling is a bit more difficult, you cannot pinpoint where the feeling is coming from…. It’s like having a stomach ache, but looking deeper at this ache, it doesn’t actually reside in the stomach, in fact i don’t actually know where the feeling resides because I could feel it in the mind too but then where is the mind?
So before i started rambling i was talking about my own reality and how i don’t see how i am any more real then a character from the dream state, how can I convince myself that I am any different anymore. Regardless of dream state or “waking state” both feel, see, experience things, and all in the context of what I ultimately am.
In the Tao is refers to man as a straw dog, which refers to man being there, but it is a shadow of what we ultimately are. Nisargardatta describes our reality is being not what we perceive ourselves to be. Even Jesus is constantly telling his followers to get away from the me because it isn’t about the persona and that the “kingdom is within us.”
The Truth is there, and I am this Truth, but realizing it through knowing over intellectually seems like it’s about to begin or is already in the begining-ness.
Til next time, cheers.