This might be a rather short piece but I also might add more when more is brought to the light of darkness. What I’ve come to know that the very Awareness that you are awareness is the start of darkness being shed from light being re-discovered. But then comes the question of, “how can I become aware.”
I will not give you a list of do’s and dont’s like i did with meditation because I realize that each human being is going to go about it in their own way regardless of what type of method is set up and it can actually cause the one that needs to see to put his/herself into an obstacle.
Here is what I’ve come to know, is that first you must realize that you are asleep to begin with, no matter how much you think you are awake, you are not, if you were awake, you would not be putting misfortune in the way of your own understanding (notice how i don’t use happiness here, it is not necessarily happiness you are seeking, because by saying that, you are trying to become something that you are not, there is something more there.) So to continue that you are asleep, everyday we put ourselves in a trance, you’ll notice it, even if for one minute you try and focus on something, most people probably cannot, and will attach themselves, what many call “day-dreams” their own personal realities. This is where negative feelings come from, body tensions come from, etc, etc. because you are no longer in the present, you have put yourself into the memory/past/future, things which are meaningless. The now is all that matters, and if you are in the present, what could you possibly be worrying about for you have all that you’ve always needed. So again you are asleep, and you do not want to wake up, you have been trained to be asleep, being awake is a natural process but it is not an easy process to get back, as the programming is like dust on a mirror, the dust is so thick and heavy that it takes time to clean the mirror.
So then, to be awake, first of all, you must forget the idea of failure, you will slip in this process but do not feel guilty about it, or condemn yourself, its alright, and things are fine if you slip, because however many times you slip, also is how many times that you will be bringing yourself back to the present. So there is no sense to judge yourself on it or feel discouraged, what great effort you have done to bring yourself back from a place that has been ingrained in that body for so long.
Knowing this, there should be a shift in thought, that knowing you are asleep it will begin to work out a way to be awake, this through my own experience has been to observe the breathing through everyday activity, it doesn’t matter what I’m doing but to watch yourself in whatever it is that you’re doing. If you are eating, pay attention to yourself eating, if you are walking, pay attention to the walking, sitting, pay attention to the sitting. Its that easy (and hard).
Osho describes that we are so many times watching others, “people watchers” but we never watch ourselves, we never observe ourselves, and we might even be the best comedy act we’ve come to watch. Not only should things become more meaningful but as awareness grows you begin to shed other things too.
Through my experiences, i’ve been working on my nail biting, it is a very unaware habit of mine in which I do both when I’m anxious, and when I’m anxious I become unaware. I’ve been battling this habit for so long and once I started looking at myself through awareness, i’ve been able to catch myself before actually biting my fingernails or having my nervous twitches, closely watching.
One other example of this is tensions in muscles in the body, if you pay attention and are aware more and more of that body that you are experiencing you will notice parts of your body are very tense but as soon as you’re aware of them, they become relaxed. The more you are aware, the more relaxed the body gets, the face will begin to relax, you start to react less and less to situations that are trying to force ideas on your being, ideas that are not natural, that call for a reaction, not action. Most things are reactions because of unawareness. When someone reacts to something it is out of habit, and habit is through unawareness. If Awareness is there, what use does the habit serve, what can the habit give you that you don’t already have through awareness?
There is more into awareness… but these words are only pointers, they are not the full truth… I will leave this post for now with two short quotes, one from Jesus and one from the Buddha.
Forgive them Father for they are unaware of what they do. -Christ
When asked by a villager, “Are you God?”
The Buddha replied, “I Am not.”
The villager then asked, “then what are you if not a god?”
The Buddha replied, “I’m Aware (or Awake)”
You and I are Asleep, Wake Up!